Day 3

I got a million things to do, and I cant get that stupid dream out of my head, that ordinarly boy, the idea that I could see him makes me wanna fall sleep every 5 mituntes. But I dont wanna talk about the dream anymore, is getting on my nerves the fact that i cant do anything.

Anyway, I been talking to guy, for days now. He is super cute, and super funny and we have great chemistry... the thing is, after saying all the good things there is no real but after but I want to put a but; nobody is that perfect.

The other day we were talking about the L world, "love" and he said he has never fall in love with somebody, and I ask him if he was afraid of falling in love, a strong NO was his answer but then he ask me if I was afraid... and It took me like 10 minutes to figure it out, NO, Im NOT afraid of love, Im not afraid of falling in love, but Yes, im afraid, Im afraid of giving everything, my heart, my soul, my body, my energy, my everything to someone and end up hurt again.

Then he ask why?... I said:"once you get everything you wanted out of a relationship and you feel is going great, and then something happens and it end up tering you appart and gettion your heart broken in the end, you wonder if its worth it"... What could I have answer?, Yes love is a great thing, love is big and it hurts, so what?.. he said...

I said yes, exacly, so what?.. love hurts, love strikes, love takes, love makes you better, makes you stronger, makes you taller, love kicks you, it makes you bleed but all the pain, all the hurt.. it is worth it... everything .. even if its for 5 minutes of happines.. of true happines

it's definitely worth it ...