Day 5

Another guy I end up pushing away becasue of william,
Im just so confused, lost.. i really dont know what to do,
I feel that if I completely move on, im cheating on William,
if I forget everything, or if I act like I did. the guilt.

The past few days I've been remembering all the details,
all of him. I cant still remember the taste of lips, and if I try hard I can even hear his voice.
The things I would do to look into his big dreammy blue eyes again,
to touch his soft creamy white skin, to kiss his perfecly designed lips,
ohhh!, the things I would do!

I feel empty inside, lost, like I said, William gave me so much, aand took eveything when he left,
now I dont have anything, I have nothing. just this feeling of pain, surrow,
love is a funny thing, love can me you the strogest person alive, and left you like the weakest
can make you a better person, a richer person, and then, guess what?; If love gave you all,
love defenetely can take more.

I used to believe in love, I had this desire of finding true love, and spend the rest of my days with that person, I still do, but in a much much smaller amount. When you fill like i do, you feel like you have this 200 pound over weight on your cheast, you can hardly breath, and its like all your energy has been taken.

I do pray for this to end, for me to find hapiness or even peace out off this situation.

I found my perfect guy, and I was stupid enought to let him go, Now I wont make the same misstakes, I wont turn my back and leave it all to "faith".


William, Oh my sweet William, am I ever gonna be able to forget you?