Ordinary Day 1

Today was another ordinary day, I woke up, after a long pleasant almost too real dream about him again, the guy that Im supposed to be with, in my dream I'm standing by the lake, its autumn, the big orange leafs fall from the trees and the water is calm and steady, the temperature is perfect. Im wearing a big brown coat with a yellow, purple and red scarf and red gloves. Im smiling, Im happy because I know ( in my dream) that he is with me. I look back and there he is, but I can't see him, I only see my expression looking back at him. I smile and I say, "It's always been you!" and I wake up.

I wonder what this dream that I been having ( for 2 weeks now) means. The only thing Im sure about is that in the dream, it seems like I already know him... Oh! .. if only I could see his face.. If only!

Im 19 years old and I been hurt 3 times, bad!. I wish I could open up to love again and fall in love with someone but I'm scare of getting hurt again and im not sure I could pick up all the pieces again. But if I could see his face, I could go and look for him, I could be sure that he is "the one". But i guess I wont know until Ill dream with him again. Oh! romeo, "Good night, good night! Parting is such sweet sorrow, That I shall say good night till it be morrow"...

6:45 am.. Its late.. I forgot for a second that life goes on.. Gotta go to class!... Im saying this in my head while im lay down on my bed.. funny hum?.. Oh yes! there it is, the chat from my friend Angela: "where are you?" ... ok.. reply.. what should i write? .. I can only thing about him, I want to find true love and I want to believe that it happens, that is true and that it lives in more than a couple of lines from shakespeare play's, in more that "Romeo and Juliet" but my heart.. is a muscle that may not take another punch, another hit, another strike..

What was I saying?.. yes!.. I'm late.. I gotta go to class.. and tell Angela and Lizzi what i dream again. They think they know everything, they'll probably tell me that is William, The blue-eyed exchange student from England or Ben my ex, now a friend who I talk to every day... But I know, I mean I can feel it, is not them is somebody else, I know it!.

After a 28 minutes and 52 seconds shower, some jeans, an old T-shirt and my black with soft pink converse, Im on my way to class once again!.. today is .. I don't even know what today is...Oh well!... I guess Ill find out here, at college..